I miss my
mum. I will especially miss her on Mother’s Day.
I want her to put her arms around me and tell me that
she too loved my boy.
Years and years ago she also lost
a son, a wee baby. People seemed to forget. Friends
and family barely mentioned him again. Much more so
than now, it was generally thought that to speak of
the passing of a child would only make the mother grieve
more. How much sadder it is not to be able to speak
of your sorrow.
To me, being able to converse about
my son makes me half-happy.
Yet did these people really forget?
I think not.
For sure there are those who will
be thinking of us and our longing for our children on
Mothers’ Day.
Others remembering our daughters and sons and will shed
tears for them and would love to hold us tight and take
away our pain. It is just too hard.
Sometimes I look for a cushion to
hug. I shut my eyes, imagine and remember and try to
be grateful that I mothered the fine young man I lost.
I am so proud to have been his mum. I did the best I
could. I sure was good-enough. Weren’t we all.
Our precious children knew love
and they loved us. So many children exist in this world
not knowing the love of a mother. Surely we should be
grateful for the baby-hood and childhood we nurtured
our loved ones through.
I wish us all a Mothers’ Day
Dream – to close our eyes and sleep soundly with
a lovely story going through our heads. That would be
so nice. Almost as good as luke-warm tea and burnt toast
in bed.
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